I don’t know, I can’t complain I guess love is good, right? But it is also a big word. I guess I could say Im in like. It’s exactly how they say, how it just creeps up on you without even realizing it.
I hate it.
I just wish it was easy, to say good bye and stick to what I had told myself I wasn’t gonna miss any of this. That I was gonna leave here and not look back, and then you came along.
I will say that you by far are the most confident to approach me, without even being cocky. It’s perfect.
You make it so there’s no way I could be awkward, I don’t feel like i need to talk to you all hours of the day to know what’s going on. It’s simple and the kind of new I need.
However, you are also a lot younger then I would go for but already the most, real person I know. It’s exciting, I can’t wait for this weekend and it’s nice to have a change in pace.

It’s been a week now since the last time that we talked.

We. It seems so long ago.

It’s weird because on a daily basis I am alright, but sometimes I just think about the late night conversations we would have on the phone, about everything. People for the most part are good at not bringing it up, or talking about relationships but it’s not like it would really bother me anyway. What I thought was happiness was a long time ago and it’s just something that I have learned is a part of life. Valentine’s day, oh man, aside from how I feel about that day it was actually pretty special because, despite what shit you tried turning it into, was revived into what I can say is possibly the most memorable February fourteenth I have ever had. I didn’t think it was possible after you.

I sound like a lost and desperate puppy, but I’m not. I’m gonna be alright but I won’t thank you for hurting me, for managing to get me to trust you so much and then crushing every piece of me. Years from now I hope you wonder about me and maybe then realized that did I love you, more than you ever wanted to believe.

I would like to say that this is going to be the last post I make about you, but I can’t promise that just yet. It’s hard to move on when there was no closure whatsoever.